Wow, what a lesson to learn. Way to come back from that though! That's a big deal.

As I was reading, I was seeing glimpses of myself in your experience. I detached pretty hardcore for a long time when I was younger. I was depressed and on my little island where all I did was beat myself up to several breaking points throughout the years.

It takes a lot of strength to look within, understand what you are seeing, and offer compassion to the hurt parts of you that need it most. But doing so opens the heart for connection with others and yourself. It's a beautiful thing, but damn hard to do if you have cut yourself off for a long time.

I appreciate you writing all of this and sharing a piece of your experience. Thank you!